I don’t get it.
So started reading anAleister Crowley and honestly I am inspired. The poor bastard has so much about the universe and yet he admits that it is all just symbolism. He doesn’t even attempt to rectify astrology with astronomy. And honestly I don’t really care very much about either circa the 1920’s. The massive failing I see in Qabbalah or any occultism is the presupposition that the universe is crystaline and all we have to do is find the patterns. As if algebra could even get you past even the most basic model of nature.
So here is Crowley who can’t make it to trans-humanism because his cannon of reason and practice, the Qaballah, is based only on algebra and could never be a dynamic, ergo functional, model. Hence the inspiration. Trans-humanism is based on a dynamic model with complexity. But how to understand complexity. I don’t know enough about network theory or graph theory, or probability math, or statistics, or discrete, or any math really. I don’t have any sort of grasp on object oriented programming, or C for that matter. This is all foundation level stuff and I just don’t have it. I was too impetuous as a youth. Why oh why did I while away my time with RPG’s and hallucinagens? The rhetorical answer is so that I take the flights of fancy needed to ask that very question.
Is it too late to crack a book and actually get a grasp of the fundamental concepts behind all the junk that I know is important but I don’t really understand? I fear that impetuousness has never gone away. I spend my day worrying about viral gene transfer and T1 weighted images, why would I start on something that I won’t be good at for more than a year. And this is how the brain grows old dear reader. It isn’t that you can’t form new dendritic connections. You are just to lazy. If I really believed this was important I would stop reading this dull ass Aleister Crowley reader and go study the real secret language of the universe!
Oh look at me! I am putting Crowley on a shelf and replacing it with a review paper of BAC transgenics and on Melanosomes. That is a start, but where to begin on network theory? Oooh a hyperlink!